Okay. I think I should say everything out now. Maybe after I typed out all the things in my mind, I might be much clearer and I would know what should I do..
I always think that it's a very wonderful miracle when someone you like confessed to you and he wanted to be with you. But now, I hope this miracle wouldn't happen to me. Because of this incident, I'hv made a lot of stupid and wrong decision, and I also hurt someone that actually care for me..
I always think that if I can act more dumb and stupid, I wouldn't face the cruel of the truth. But I was so wrong. I'm just act like I don't know but actually I know it and I can feel it.
I'm so sorry. I shouldn't be so playful.. I shouldn't give you that paper just for fun, especially when it's Valentine that day. If I'm more mature, I wouldn't act cute in front of you... So you wouldn't care me or even like me.Then you might not be so hurt... And see what I'hv done now? I hurt you so badly and you still have to act like there's nothing wrong. Now, you started to ignore me. I'm so regret now, but what can I do? I keep on asking myself, is there necessary to make our friendship ends up like this? But everything is just too late. What can I do? I don't even dare to talk to you now.. I'm so sorry....
For the one who I actually like, I wish to be with you. Really... But you know? You just confess to a girl few weeks ago and now it's me. I not sure that you really liked me or you have some other reasons to be with me... You make me feel so insecure. Should I decline you so that he wouldn't hurt so much, or be with you so to satisfied my wish? I wish after I'hv made a decision, it wouldn't hurt both of you so much..
I'm sorry for writting such a moody post...
August 25, 2012
August 23, 2012
Yesh I'm back! (for awhile) XD
Hey yeah, I'm back! Yeah, so keep calm and gimme money!
Nahh, I'm just joking ^^
This is the first post after my Mid-Term exam.
Haha. There's a lot of things happened in these few months
and I feel kinda lost.
Firstly, I'm so happy that I could get into the class I loved a lot.
I can sit with my bestfriend,
get to know more new friends that doesn't irritates me
Although I was listed as bad student by those teachers
but I'm still lovin' it and I'm enjoying it.
But..
I don't know how to say.
There's a lot of things in my mind.
but I could't clear it up.
everything is just happened suddenly.
I'm very confuse and lost now
I might trying to write out what is happening
when my brain is much clearer
and the timing is right
because there's some construction beside my house
it's very annoying and noisy
So, that's all for today.
BAH-YEE!
Nahh, I'm just joking ^^
This is the first post after my Mid-Term exam.
Haha. There's a lot of things happened in these few months
and I feel kinda lost.
Firstly, I'm so happy that I could get into the class I loved a lot.
I can sit with my bestfriend,
get to know more new friends that doesn't irritates me
Although I was listed as bad student by those teachers
but I'm still lovin' it and I'm enjoying it.
But..
I don't know how to say.
There's a lot of things in my mind.
but I could't clear it up.
everything is just happened suddenly.
I'm very confuse and lost now
I might trying to write out what is happening
when my brain is much clearer
and the timing is right
because there's some construction beside my house
it's very annoying and noisy
So, that's all for today.
BAH-YEE!
January 12, 2012
Cause I'm just another girl :)
Yes, Imma super normal and ordinary girl!
Well, I don't like to be so 'indifferent",
but still, I have to admit it.
But it's okay!
cause at least I knew the reason of this problem! hahas
Imagine, if there's a big banner fall from the sky and 10 girls was died,
5 of them that looked alike
and one of them
it's ME!
No? well, at least my parent told this to me when I was 12. hahas
My result is always the median or almost median of the number of student in class,
Nice body figure and pretty face feature are not for me.
I can't sing well or dance 'charismatically' (like how GD&TOP performing. lol)
and well, Im not famous in school and seldom people know who am I,
not even 'the tall girl' or 'that nonsenses-talker'.
Anyway, it's not a sad thing,
But it's making me kinda frustrated sometimes
when you are thinking how do yourself looked like.
and you found that you are not pretty or special or attractive.
so no one will think for you feelings except for those who really care for you.
Wait, why is it turned into emo post??
Noo... I don't want emo post anymore... lol
So, let's say something positive!
I gonna tell you GOOD THINGS about being a ordinary girl!
Firstly, there will be much lesser people who wanna be famous will annoys you!
Since you have no fame they won't wasting their time to make you happy,
or even talk to you
And you won't get back-stabbed by those who are unworthy
for you to pay your friendship love to them.
No back-stabber, no heartbreak.
And you won't sing GD's Heartbreaker
with full of sad or angry emotion,
but sang happily and enjoy
with you very very close friend!
OMG suddenly lost all my ideas..
Gonna stop on here.
'Buh-bye!'
said the ordinary girl
that slightly taller than the average height of Asian women.. lol
Yes♥
Boy: I like you very much
Girl : Thanks :)
Boy: Hehehe~ :DDDD
Girl : I like myself too!! ^^
LOLOL
Well, I don't like to be so 'indifferent",
but still, I have to admit it.
But it's okay!
cause at least I knew the reason of this problem! hahas
Imagine, if there's a big banner fall from the sky and 10 girls was died,
5 of them that looked alike
and one of them
it's ME!
No? well, at least my parent told this to me when I was 12. hahas
My result is always the median or almost median of the number of student in class,
Nice body figure and pretty face feature are not for me.
I can't sing well or dance 'charismatically' (like how GD&TOP performing. lol)
and well, Im not famous in school and seldom people know who am I,
not even 'the tall girl' or 'that nonsenses-talker'.
Anyway, it's not a sad thing,
But it's making me kinda frustrated sometimes
when you are thinking how do yourself looked like.
and you found that you are not pretty or special or attractive.
so no one will think for you feelings except for those who really care for you.
Wait, why is it turned into emo post??
Noo... I don't want emo post anymore... lol
So, let's say something positive!
I gonna tell you GOOD THINGS about being a ordinary girl!
Firstly, there will be much lesser people who wanna be famous will annoys you!
Since you have no fame they won't wasting their time to make you happy,
or even talk to you
And you won't get back-stabbed by those who are unworthy
for you to pay your friendship love to them.
No back-stabber, no heartbreak.
And you won't sing GD's Heartbreaker
with full of sad or angry emotion,
but sang happily and enjoy
with you very very close friend!
OMG suddenly lost all my ideas..
Gonna stop on here.
'Buh-bye!'
said the ordinary girl
that slightly taller than the average height of Asian women.. lol
Yes♥
Boy: I like you very much
Girl : Thanks :)
Boy: Hehehe~ :DDDD
Girl : I like myself too!! ^^
LOLOL
January 5, 2012
I'm all alone, all alone, I'm all alone...
If you ask me about how is my Form-4 life.
I would tell you that it is freaking bad and suck!
Well, yes, it is.
But I wonder that is it my school lousy,
or I'm just born to be so unlucky.
Well, I'm currently in 4 Angsana now,
which is the class that everyone says it's the best class.
If you wanna listen to my opinion,
I would tell you that it is very lousy.
The WORST CLASS I HAD IN MY LIFE.
Yes, is the worst class.
I wished for everyday since a week before the school start,
so that I wouldn't get into 4 Angsana.
I don't know why, I just don't wish to go 4 Angsana.
Guess what? I cried after I get to know that I'm in 4 Angsana
Did you ever went into a classroom that is so far away from other same-form-classes?
Did you ever went into a classroom that is so dark, even with the lights on, and surrounded by trees and make you feel like you are camping inside the jungle?
Did you ever done your artworks or whatever in the class which you have never been done before as you are too bored in the class alone?
Did you ever feel so alone that everyone has their own partner except for me?
Did you ever feel so helpless when you are not in the situation but no one would tell you what to do?
But that's not the worst thing I had.
That's not the reason for me to cry.
But when you know that all of your close friends could be in the same class except for you,
and you have no partner in your new class for maybe two years.
It's like the whole world left you alone,
and all the friends that close to you can life happily even without you
You might not be understand as well.
Because you are not me, you don't know how important are best friends to me.
I could be crazy and messing around when my friends are there.
But without friends, I'm nothing at all.
I wouldn't speak or do whatever I wish to do.
Well, it's ok..
I have taken the form today.
And I would appeal to get into sub science
and I could same class with Jeanette
At least I'm not in 4 Angsana anymore...
I would tell you that it is freaking bad and suck!
Well, yes, it is.
But I wonder that is it my school lousy,
or I'm just born to be so unlucky.
Well, I'm currently in 4 Angsana now,
which is the class that everyone says it's the best class.
If you wanna listen to my opinion,
I would tell you that it is very lousy.
The WORST CLASS I HAD IN MY LIFE.
Yes, is the worst class.
I wished for everyday since a week before the school start,
so that I wouldn't get into 4 Angsana.
I don't know why, I just don't wish to go 4 Angsana.
Guess what? I cried after I get to know that I'm in 4 Angsana
Did you ever went into a classroom that is so far away from other same-form-classes?
Did you ever went into a classroom that is so dark, even with the lights on, and surrounded by trees and make you feel like you are camping inside the jungle?
Did you ever done your artworks or whatever in the class which you have never been done before as you are too bored in the class alone?
Did you ever feel so alone that everyone has their own partner except for me?
Did you ever feel so helpless when you are not in the situation but no one would tell you what to do?
But that's not the worst thing I had.
That's not the reason for me to cry.
But when you know that all of your close friends could be in the same class except for you,
and you have no partner in your new class for maybe two years.
It's like the whole world left you alone,
and all the friends that close to you can life happily even without you
You might not be understand as well.
Because you are not me, you don't know how important are best friends to me.
I could be crazy and messing around when my friends are there.
But without friends, I'm nothing at all.
I wouldn't speak or do whatever I wish to do.
Well, it's ok..
I have taken the form today.
And I would appeal to get into sub science
and I could same class with Jeanette
At least I'm not in 4 Angsana anymore...
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